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I Love
Joseph Han
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[name] Jackie Luu [aka pei pei]
~i love Jesus Christ~
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i love u joseph. forever and a day.
1o.20.o3
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[specialties]
SLEEP and take NAPS! and.. um.. draw! im a creative person.. or i try to be! bein a DORK!
[wat i like to do]
hang out with mai homiez [u know who u are!].. spendin time with j0ey =).. listenin to mai music.. chattin online.. talkin to mai conscience [lyndz].. poke kt! xD playin basketball.. and read mai mangaz =P
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[email] lostXinXemotion@hotmail.com
[screen name..for almost everything] liTo_jAy_xD
You don’t marry someone that you can live with… You marry the one that you can’t live without…
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Dec 26, 2003
wooOoOO! so it turns out.. i DID have sumthin to do on christmas day.. hehe.. lots of fun.. to be honest.. its kinda fun not bein online.. i should cut down mah comp time for this break.. hehe.. i went to the mall like a billion times so far.. haha... arite..
well.. when i waz FORCED to wake up.. at 11:00.. o.0.. ud think i would get more sleep.. hehe.. but NOOOooO! i dun get nEmore sleep.. hmpf! and. i went to mah grandmother's and aunties house.. well.. technically they r seperate houses.. but.. yah.. haha.. NEwazy.. we had a load of fun.. i havent seen SCOTT in SOOOO LOOONG!!! and le and.. connie.. and.. fu.. and.. justin.. and the lito kids.. man.. i missed them.. hehe.. it waz fun hangin out.. i dun think i'll be seein them for a while.. and as usual i still get teased by them.. cause of mah height.. but.. man.. we all know how tall SCOTT is.. hehehe.. man.. i NEVER wanna be as tall as him.. but im at his nose now.. so.. thats kinda scary.. o.0;;
and.. so.. evonna came over later.. and we exchanged gifts.. cept.. i didnt bring mine.. since i didnt know she waz gonna go to aunties house too.. well it waz lots of fun.. haha.. she had to take pics for photography... we made fu make a.. erm.. flashback of proposing to.. his fiance.. i forgot wat her name waz.. crappers.. and.. haha.. thats the wedding we goin to on jan 10th by the way.. =D yup.. so after the pics.. we went back to evonnes house.. she needed to take us home.. said... bye to everyone.. it waz a fun time.. and.. yah! we had to do more pics for photography again.. o.0 since the other ones i did for her didnt turn out.. lol poopie.. ahha.. so ya.. they took me home and.. i found out.. that mah cusin from SF waz comin down! with meeh auntie!! =D
she gave meeh a puzzle.. ahha.. another one.. i got a ffx-2 one.. and she got meeh a frame to put it in after im finished with it.. which is kinda strange.. cause.. thats the exact same thing evonne gave me.. cept eh puzzle she got meeh.. waz a chobits one.. red one.. its realli cute.. eheh.. and kool.. yah.. thats it for meeh! jackie luu.. signing out.. lol i know im a dork.. wat can i say? =P
Posted at 02:44 pm by liTo_jAy_XD
Dec 24, 2003
ive told u this b4.. and i'll tell u again.. u know.. they say.. if u confess to the person u love today u live happily ever after.. i never realli did confess i loved u.. well not realli..
erm.. hey.. j0ey.. guess who? haha.. ya its meeh. jackeh.. wow.. deja vu rite? well im not talkin to a monitor rite now.. but its the thought that counts rite? erm.. even if u cant tell how i feel.. i hope u can.. because.. sometimes.. words r the only way i can get mah feelings out to u..
i know.. i dun say i love u as much as u do to me.. and im srry for that.. this is still all realli knew to meeh.. after all im juss a naive lito freshman rite..? haha.. so i juss wanted to tell u.. that mah love for u is unconditional.. it will remain in mah heart and hopefully urs even after i finalli get mah wings and leave this earth.. ahha.. u know wat im talkin bout.. but ya.. um.. dun ever doubt mah love for u.. i know things r never alwayz perfect between us.. but thats one of the obstacles of love rite? hehe..
i know there r times where u get jealousy get the best of u.. and to tell u the trust.. im srry for sayin this.. but once jealousy gets to u.. u can reali be a jerk sometimes.. but i guess its because u love meeh so much rite? haha.. hope so.. so i guess its ok.. like. ryan.. and ramy.. they r juss friends to me.. u know that.. ramy is like an older brother to meeh.. even if we havent known each other for a long time.. there is alwayz a connection rite..? kinda like us.. ermm and.. ryan.. he's juss an idiot who flirts too much.. so dun worry bout those 2.. friends and nuthin more.. and i want u to know.. that there is only room for ONE person in mah heart.. that i completely and truly love.. and thats u joseph han.. and only u..
the first time i met u.. i didnt realli recognize u the way u did to meeh.. haha honestly.. i juss thought.. 'o we have another new guy at tony'z...' ahha.. u sat by urself for a while.. i waz kinda wondering when u would finalli talk to us.. ahha.. u did eventualli.. which waz a very interesting conversation by the way.. pennies? lol and.. well u know.. but ya.. i know u meant it towards me.. maybe not then.. but i do now.. i guess i should say thnx huh? haha.. thank u j0ey. when we were first friends.. i remember all u could talk bout waz daniela and how much u liked her.. and being stuck in this lito luv triangle.. haha.. and here i waz.. on the side line.. cheering u on.. and tellin u to never give up.. haha.. who ever woulda thought it would be us that ended up together eh..?
::sigh:: but im glad it did.. i know u've asked me so many times how i fell in love with u.. first of all.. i want u to know. i didnt fall for ur looks.. i fell for ur heart.. and never let NEone.. like.. adrienne.. or someone.. tell u other wise.. ur looks were juss a bonus.. =P haha.. but i guess it realli started out even when we werent goin out.. not juss when u told me u liked me.. u alwayz seemed to put a smile on mah face.. u helped me when i needed it.. and.. ahha u even helped me make a new friend [lyndz] hehe.. u were like a brother to meeh.. when u DID tell me tha u had feelings for me.. to be honest i waz realli shocked.. i seriously thought u only thought of me only as a lito sister or sumthin.. minus the age difference.. AND i dunno how NEone would like me.. but maybe because no one has told me directly b4.. but ya.. um.. i guess when u told me.. it showed me a whole new lite to u.. a lite that showed me how much i realli did care for u.. not juss as a friend.. but something more.. i guess it juss went from there.. haha i mean look at us now.. hehe
remember when u were scared at first.. the age difference waz a real biggie.. ya i waz scared too.. and i remember not so long ago.. ive thought bout how we would end up.. i remember u tellin me ur choices for college.. and most of them r near SD so u could visit me.. but one.. i waz scared of.. stanford.. it waz actualli one of mah choices.. but.. i guess i didnt know how we would last in a long distance relationship.. but then.. i decided.. if we ended up being apart in the future.. then i should hold on as tite as i can while i still have the chance.. and to live in the present.. not the future.. or the past.. because.. when im round u.. it feels like the whole world has stopped rotating.. that time juss stopped for us.. to be together.. forever.. but then the time that seems like eternity feels like only a couple of seconds at the same time.. but.. even if it does end.. i'll know.. i never gave up tryin.. so when u DO go to college.. and its far away.. u will take a part of me with u..
mah heart and love will be with u.. synchronized with every beat of ur heart.. because i love u.. u mean so much to me.. ur the reason i wake up every morning.. ur the reason i keep living.. and pushing on to achieve mah goals.. besides god.. and sometimes mah family.. ur the only one that keeps me happy.. that is y i love u.. u managed to capture mah heart b4 i even had a chance to defend mahself.. but i dun care.. i love u..
well its gettin pretty late.. meeh and annie r tryin to see who can stay up the longest.. and i think she's gonna win.. haha but i will push on!! long live jackeh! LOL jkjk
o and joe? i love u.. i love u with all mah heart and soul.. and thats a promise. =) and u know i dun break promises.. or try mah hardest not to.. we can seal it with a kiss later.. goodnite baby boy. NEVER forget how much u mean to meeh.. and how much im in love with u.. everything i do.. everything i say.. is for u.. and u only
Posted at 02:30 am by liTo_jAy_XD
Dec 23, 2003
its almost 2:45... and im still here.. thinkin bout u.. r u thinkin bout me? hah.. of course not.. ur alseep.. im srry for today.. u know i'll alwayz forgive u..
i waz layin in bed.. listenin to ur CD.. wondering if u meant everything u said to me.. so i came down stairs.. juss to say this to u.. i love u.. and i will alwayz love u.. no matter wat i say.. or do.. u will alwayz be a part of me.. even after death.. mah love for u wil be eternal.. i love u.. and i miss u.. come back to me soon.. ive never felt this way b4.. i juss need to know ur alwayz gonna be there for me.. i dun care how many tears i shed.. as long as ur there with me.. because.. i love u.. and only u..
i pray at nite.. wishing and hoping.. ur love for me will last forever.. like mine does for u.. i love u.. forver...
I lie awake at night
See things in black and white
I've only got you inside my mind
You know you have made me blind
I lie awake and pray
That you will look my way
I have all this longing in my heart
I knew it right from the start
Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you
I used to write your name
And put it in a frame
And sometime I think I hear you call
Right from my bedroom wall
You stay a little while
And touch me with your smile
And what can I say to make you mine
To reach out for you in time
Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you
[BRIDGE]
Oh pretty boy
Say you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you
::pretty boy - M2M::
Posted at 02:39 am by liTo_jAy_XD
Dec 22, 2003
a day at mira mesa.. o no...!
so here it goes.. haha.. i woke up round 11:15 and started to get ready to go to mira mesa.. edwards cinema.
haha. we all got there at the same time cept for stan.. i think.. well NEwazy.. when i say us i mean me, annie, kt, alyssa, and stan.. SOMEBODY.. coughstancough forgot to preorder the tickets.. so we ended up not gettin to watch lotr.. poopie.. we r thinkin of watchin it next week though.. well.. so instead we watched stuck on u.. which i have NO idea y.. lol.. me and annie didnt even know wat the plot of the movie waz until it waz over.. and then decided it waz kinda stoopid to pick that movie.. LOL
but.. b4 we saw the movie.. we had to wait till it waz like 2.. cause.. when we all got there it waz 12.. so we juss went around and got some food and went shopping.. 1st stop.. oscars.. yum breadsticks =9 hahaha.. eh... pretty interesante conversation if i mite add... LOL.. u dunno wat its bout unless u know wat this means.. !!!! ahhaha... so me and kt went on ahead to old navy.. i found a realli nice black dress shirt i could wear.. but.. bleh.. so expensive.. even with the freakin discounts!!! lol.. so i found some nice black pants too.. but nooooo they had to be expensive too! goshies.. haha seriously that whole store is craZ expensive.. and.. well i dun even wanna talk bout ross.. LOL dress for less.. hahaha.. man.. its cheap.. but the stuff there.. SUX.. hahahaha.. well juss didnt realli take the time to look though.. erm.. yah.. so then we went all the way around again and went to bath and body works.. haha..i got mahself a new perfume.. well not realli. body spray.. the perfume i wanted wasnt as good as the body spray.. ehehhe.. it smells like peach! =P hahaha.. j0ey ;] haha.. so when we were bout to go to barnes and nobles.. me and annie wanted to go to jamba juice.. but kt isnt allowed to cross the street.. and alyssa waz laZ.. and well u know.. wherever alyssa goes stan goes.. so it waz juss me and annie gettin all the stuff for them.. haha.. we looked like dorks coming back running across the street holding these giant drinks in our hands.. gosh.. haha but it waz funny..
then we came back.. only to realize if we didnt hurry up the movie would start.. ahhaa.. and then when we DID get there.. we were like 15 min EARLY.. =.=;; lol.. so we juss hung out for a while till the movie started.. there waz one REALLI funny part in the movie that made it a LITO worth while.. haha.. the part with the GIANT TEDDY BEAR COSTUME.. ahhaa.. hilarious.. annie couldnt stop laughin.. and she had to cover her mouth to stop.. but it didnt help.. lol..
so ya.. after the movie we went to barnes and nobles again.. when we were coming out.. i seriously saw a TON of j0ey'z friends... haha.. other wise known as CBC ppl.. haha.. they went to watch lotr.. the movie WE didnt get to see.. blah.. so kt had to leave.. poopie!! =( she got in trouble.. lying to her parents bout finishin her hw.. tsk tsk tsk.. LOL thats NOT sumthin u lie bout to chinese parents.. or else.. DUN DUN DUN.. lol so.. we went to barnes and nobles.. and me and annie looked at the manga.. i checked out this one manga that evonne looked at b4.. xday.. its kinda weird.. this one gurls life is horrible and so she decides to blow up the skool with some other ppl.. but this has exboyfriends and prefect replacement gurlfriend.. duncha juss hate those.. NEwazy.. ya.. they wanted to blow up the skool.. some very explicit pics too.. err.. yah.. haha.. alluding to some.. err.. blah.. stuffs.. heh.. catch mai drift.. mm hmm! well ya.. mai dad came a while later.. i bought some gifts.. still nuthin for like.. 5 ppl.. crapperz.. mah time is running out.. bleh.. lol..
ya so i waz bout to go home.. but then mah dad wanted to get an EZ dinner so we went to pho ahn.. and i went into order some food.. mah dad stayed in the car.. i seriously think the ppl there were lookin at me weird and talkin bout me in viet.. it waz SCARY.. never goin in alone again.. ::shudders::
then i came home.. took a LONG shower.. and watched pirates! =) woo thats a good movie.. ehhehe.. i saw it twice.. once when i got home.. and once after i watched 2 eps of naruto.. hehehe.. man.. im gonna turn into lyndz.. and rachel waz rite.. orlando does use the same accent for legolas AND will turner.. eh.. hahaha.. i noticed a lotta things.. now i actualli get wat ppl r talkin bout now.. hahaa.. yo ho yo ho a pirates life for me.. =D
Posted at 03:49 pm by liTo_jAy_XD
Dec 20, 2003
last day at skool before winter break.
well.. this waz a great day.. haha..
well first of all.. i waz up for a LOOONG time doin mai presentation.. and doin other hw too.. kt u booger!! LOL im jk.. s'all good in the end.. and i waz wrapping presents too.. cept some of them.. werent very well wrapped i guess.. ahhha.. erm a lotta ppl gave me cards.. and i didnt give them NEthing back.. and i feel bad bout that.. so i guess im gonna be goin card shopping for a while.. haha
so.. NEwazy.. when i first got to skool... i waz wearing mai long sleeved dress shirt.. with a red mickey mouse tie.. and.. juss blue jeans.. um.. i saw stephanie in the morning.. and..i forgot we were supposed to wear our RB bball stuffs.. and i feel bad.. bout it.. but i cant wear sweats and say im a professional doctor.. hahhha
erm.. i waz carryin a LOT of stuffs that morning.. hahaha.. and all day too..i think mai arms were gonna fall off.. but ya.. in the morning.. guess who the person i first saw that day.. yup! i saw mai baby boy joseph han. hehehe.. and he gave me this HUUGE present.. and im very grateful.. but i kinda feel bad.. mai present is dinky.. i wanted it to be good.. but its the thought that counts.. rite? yah.. =) and... i saw kt and alyssa rite after that.. we exchanged presents.. and i waz carryin a load of presents for people and presents for me.. haha.. erm.. s'ok.. im grateful.. i didnt realli need presents.. but.. i guess i should be grateful for them.. because i know ppl care enough to get me something.. and.. yah.
so.. i had a realli good day.. i got to stay with j0ey till like.. 3:45.. i thought the bus to take me to carlsbad waz gonna come later.. but i guess not..
so.. we were on the bus.. i found some realli interesting neews. but.. only kt knows wat im talkin bout.. hahaha.. i didnt reali wanna know.. and it wasnt gonna affect me NEwazy.. so it waz kinda useles.. but it waz sweet.. um.. yah.. it waz a long ride.. and boring too.. so we finally got there.. and.. we watched the guys play.. they won by like.. 10 points.. some ppl behind us while we were sitting on the bleachers.. were realli loud and annoying.. we all wanted to smack them.. they kept slamming their feet on the bleachers.. and i wanted to kick them.. geez.. they were gonna break the bleachers.. =.=;; goshies.. could u BE NEmore immature? such bad sportsmanship.. it waz only freshman guys too.. wateva
um.. so we lost when we played.. haha.. we had a lotta turnovers.. and.. missed lots of layups.. hehe.. i only scored... like 4 points.. that game.. it waz a tough game.. but it taught us a lot too.. i think we will do good next time.. ahha.. good thing it wasnt a league game though.. so we ended up losing by likr.. 20 points.. o well..cant win them all..
but overall.. we did good.. great team to lose against.. um.. so.. yah.. um.. yah.. this waz by far one of the best days of mai life.. lots of fun and laughs to go with it.. haha..
Posted at 02:40 pm by liTo_jAy_XD
Dec 18, 2003
not so perfect after all..
Hey dad look at me.
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time...
Doing things I wanna do
But it hurts when you disapprove all along.
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that I'm alright
And you can't change me
Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you
But you don't understand
Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
-simple plan: perfect-
Posted at 07:54 pm by liTo_jAy_XD
Dec 14, 2003
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNIE!!!
HAHAHHA.. hey annie! its the same color as ur ice skates u had!! its so.. VIBRANT!! LOL
well NEwazy.. yesterday.. hahahaha... wat a fun fun day.. ok.. so i waz a lito late when i went to her house.. but it wasnt mai fault!! i had to take a shower! and i took a nap too.. but... STILL! its not ENTIRELY mai fault! ANNIE told me to put perfume and crap on so i wont stink up the place.. HAHAHA. ya.. i saw kt'z dad goin out of the neighborhood when we were goin in.. i think he looked at me weird.. =.=;; hahha.. wateva.. haha...
so we went to UTC.. and hahaha.. we sang in the car.. haha.. that waz strange.. LOL kept sayin.. 'TO THE WINDOW! TO THE WALL!' hahhaa.. obviously all u pplz know where thats from.. LOL.. we somehow got on the topic of the milkshake song.. ::shudders:: i dun think everyone knows wat it reali means.. i waz talkin to kurenai the other day.. and she waz tellin me bout how good the milkshake song waz.. and im like..o.0;; err.. yah.. ... ...
so we got to UTC.. decided to go ice skating first.. haha.. we were all prepared.. all had long socks.. haha.. so we wouldnt get blisters.. like i did last time.. i decided to warn everyone.. hahaha.. ya.. so we all knew how to skate cept for the bday gurl and alyssa.. hahahaha.. it waz HILARIOUS to watch them try to skate for the first time.. i dun think annie ever fell on her butt.. but i didnt see.. but who knows.. but FO SHO alyssa fell on her butt.. haha i waz there to see it too.. HAHAHA. well they FINALLY got the hang of it in the end.. but it took a while.. LOL they like... walk on the ice instead of GLIDE.. but.. ahhah we're makin progress.. i think i remember havin a convo bout ice skatin again ova winter break.. and iviting the guys.. im sure jon and stan can go.. but im not sure bout j0ey.. eh.. o well.. haha.. its probably gonna be me and ANNIE AGAIN! juss like when we went to the mall.. haha.
so ya we finished ice skatin round 3 o'clock.. and we went shopping.. we ended up spliting up.. we exchanged phone numbers.. kt tried to put alyssa'z phone number onto mai cell phone.. but.. instead of makin the name ALYSSA.. she put JACKIE.. this is me: o.0;; I AM JACKIE!!! hahahha.. kt seriously called me alyssa like.. a billion times that nite.. haha wat a LOSER! so.. me and kt went shopping for a while.. annie and rebecca went somewhere i dunno where.. and alyssa.. went somewhere else.. hahaha.. me and kt bumped into andrew when we were sitting outside of.. somestore.. er.. abercombie and fitch? i dun remember.. and we went to sam goody.. we were tryin to look for a CD.. one that will not BE PUT IN MAI BLOG.. hahha.. i have no idea y kt would wanna buy that for someone.. hahaha.. we saw andrew again. cept we didnt wanna talk to him.. and we found these mini SPEAKERS. for a CD PLAYER.. hahaha. i wanted to buy them.. but too bad for me i had no money.. LOL or.. NO MORE.. is more like it.. im officially broke and in debt to kt until monday and i give her back her money. LOL which is ONLY 2 bucks by the way.. juss to let u know.. =D hehhe..
i ended up buyin.. ONE THING!!! ONLY ONE!! cause i only had enough to buy ONE! HAHAH.. how sad is that. PST..::whispers:: ALL OF U R PROBABLY NOT GONNA GET UR PRESENT TILL AFTER WINTER BREAK:: hahahhaha.. yah.. NEwazy.. so we went back to annie'z house laterz.. sang some more in the car.. hehe.. and ya.. we had cake.. i smeared some cream on her face.. and then kt followed up.. many pics taken.. probably embarrassing ones too.. LOL haha.. we played mario party.. hahah it waz lots of fun.. i finally got up to like.. 2nd place from 4th place.. cause im juss good like that..::puts on shades:: LOL ya rite.. and then.. soon after.. it waz time for me to depart.. but not UNTIL I FINISHED THAT ROUND! alyssa waz mai partner.. and we had to finish this maze thingy.. teamwork time.. haha we were like yellin at the screen.. mai dad came.. nad bursted mai bubble.. poopie.. lOL so ya.. thats bout it for the day!
once again.. HAPPY BDAY ANNIE!! 15?!?!? DANG GURL! U OLD WOMAN!! AHHA JKJKJK! i luv ya gurl! i wonder who'z bday is next.. LOL.. O NO!! ITS KT!!!! AHH!! this is gonna be fun =P
Posted at 05:54 pm by liTo_jAy_XD
Dec 12, 2003
well ppl.. this has officially.. been the longest week of mai life so far.. bleh.. this is me..---> x.X yup.. im dead.. im realli tired.. and yet i still have time to update for u pplz! =D mai mom is buggin the heck outta me.. bout stoopid chink skool.. like i care bout that NEwazy.. im not goin this weekend.. HAH.. im probably gonna quit next yr.. im soo dead.. and im only a DINKY FRESHMAN.. thats wat all u anti-freshmans call us.. hmpf!.. omgosh.. mai mom is goin to stress me out sooo much im gonna have gray hairs.. now i HAVE to go to chinese skool.. WTHEKKERS!! im fightin the urge to cuss rite now.. GAH!
so.. NEwazy.. on monday and tuesday.. me and kt stayed after skool to 'work' on our project on lyme disease.. which we never got to.. cause we had our midterm due for biology.. which thankfully i finished early.. or i would be dead rite now.. so.. supposedly kt is gonna try to work on the outline for the project today.. and gimme the things she didnt finish tomorrow at annie'z bday party.. and i have a vocab final next friday.. actualli i have a lotta stuff to do.. =.=;; ::sigh:: and mai parents and bball r not makin it NE easier.. mai parents.. can be so selfish sometimes.. they never think bout how stressed i can get.. im like.. dying of exhaustion and all they can do is laugh and make cruel jokes bout me that arent even funny or supporting.. im so stressed i feel like im gonna cry.. i wanna go hide in a corner and juss cry.. mai parents r such hyprocrites.. y dun i lay on the floor and die now.. geez..
well NEwazy.. back to wat i did.. on wednesday and thursday.. i spent some time with j0ey.. this is a funny part.. when coach saw me and j0ey together.. he waz like.. 'dont make me kill u' to j0ey.. hahahaha.. that waz funny.. me: 'thanks coach!'..
so i had a bball game against fallbrook on wednesday.. kt couldnt go to mai game.. but sara did! =D i did pretty good that game.. i scored like.. 15 points.. or sumthin around there.. ya.. haha.. we were losing at first.. and at one point we were losin by 15 points! =O... but we came back 2nd half.. we kicked some serious butt.. and mai dad came and saw me play.. he never smiles or cheers.. he juss sits.. he's so boring.. blah. and he alwayz criticizes.. he never gives me a compliment.. would u like it if ur parents never gave u NE support?! NO. geez.. and then.. i had a game today too.. we won our game! =D woo! westview waz the skool we were playin.. they werent too bad.. this one azn gurl.. waz a realli good point guard.. juss zoomed rite past us.. cept.. good thing we have tall posts..hint hint me..lol juss kiddin! and i didnt see katie wang!! no i didnt! i think she waz lyin bout bein on the team.. i dunno.. i gotta find out.. so.. i didnt do too well on that game.. i kept doin all the wrong things.. kept gettin yelled at.. poopie.. i need to practice on sunday.. i got practice tomorrow too.. 8 am - 10 am.. then i have to go to poopie chink skool.. unless mai mom freakin changes her mind again!!
as u can see.. im not in a very good mood.. i juss wanna sleep rite now.. im very grumpy.. i dived for the bball like.. 3 times.. and i landed on the same spot.. over and over again.. i think i have a bruise on mai elbow now.. i got ice.. but it still hurts.. i landed on mai hip too.. owwie.. if u see the look on mai face rite now its like.. boring.. its non moving.. and dead.. i look like a zombie.. and mai mom is keeping me awake..
im also reali pissed at mai parents rite now.. if u noticed i complain more bout mai parents more than envy them.. wanna know y? cause they r pessimists about life.. AND they r hyprocrites.. AND mai dad is a FAKE! AND mai mom is never reali understanding. now if u had mai parents u would complain too.. everything i do is never good enough. geez.
Posted at 10:10 pm by liTo_jAy_XD
Dec 9, 2003
So Much In Love
as we stroll along together
holding hands walking all along
so in love are we two
that we don't know what to do
so in love (do so in love)
in a world of our own (do so in love)
as we walk by the sea together
under stars twinkling high above
so in love are we two
no one else but me and you
so in love (do so in love)
so much in love (do so in love)
so in love (do so in love)
so much in love (do so in love)
we stroll along together
i tell you, i need you oh so much
i love, i love you my darling
can you tell it in my touch
as we walk down the aisle together
we will vow to be together till we die
so in love are we two
just can't wait to say i do
so in love (do so in love)
in a world of our own
(do so in love) so in love
(do so in love) are you and i
(do so in love)
baby, i hope you realize
that you mean so much to me
you're everything i ever wanted in a woman
to touch, to feel your body close to me
and i just want to hold you in my arms forever
can you (i love you baby) tell it in my touch
as we walk down the aisle together
we will vow to be together till we die
so in love are we two
are we two just can't wait to say i do
so in love (do so in love)
are you and i (do so in love)
so in love (do so in love)
are you and i (do so in love)
(do so in love) so in love
(do so in love) so in love
(do so in love) so in love
(do so in love) so in love
hehe.. i love u j0ey! forever and ever and ever and ever.. ur more than i couldve asked for in this world.. i love u with all my heart. juss like how to song sings.. 'baby, i hope u realize that u mean so much to me... and i juss want to hold u in mai arms forever...'
errr.. when it says.. ' you're everything i ever wanted in a woman'.. scratch dat.. ur all i ever wanted in a MAN xD i love u baby boy =)
Posted at 10:57 pm by liTo_jAy_XD
Dec 4, 2003
life is hard.. these dayz.. ppl find out different emotions in the hardest wayz.. its depressing when u think bout all the things we discover.. but they alwayz come with a price.. i guess sometimes being happy is the hardest thing u can do in life.. achieving it i mean.. a LIMITED number of ppl.. realli enjoy life as best as they can.. alwayz lookin on the other side of the rainbow.. knowin there is alwayz a good side.. but when u can reach this..u can definitely say.. even if ur not the brightest.. or intelligent.. or creative.. u can TRULY say.. u shine brighter amongst the other stars and never burn out..
there were a lot of times where i HAVE thought of suicide.. i know this is kinda strange.. but this feeling actualli started when i fist played final fantasy viii.. squall [one of the main characters] thinks bout how ppl would react and feel if he died.. or passed away.. would ppl think of him? would ppl remember him? how would they react? all these things come up.. and u want to know the answers.. but somethings like these.. r not meant to be known.. i am ashamed.. of feeling like this..i mean. i never wanted intentionally to do it.. but ive thought about it..
so.. im tryin to tell all of u ppl out there.. i know sometimes things r rough.. and u want to give up when it the toughest.. but NEVER give up.. things wont be perfect.. but at least.. u know u gave it ur all..
:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:
srry bout that everyone..i juss wanted to help some ppl out.. well.. this week..has been tiring..
today..i had to stay after skool till bout.. um.. 6 PM! LOL cause i had bball.. i spent tutorial time with kt and alyssa of course.. fun fun! =) and then for the rest until 4 PM i stayed with j0ey! we played a lito 2-on-2 with some pplz.. and then another guy named jake came to play.. he made the freshman team i think? well.. he kicked our butts.. lol.. not exactly how i wouldve wanted to spend mai alone time with j0ey but..i still get to stay with him.. =) ya so.. i gave him his birthday present today.. the bag waz ripped when i gave it to him.. =( poopie.. ::sniff sniff:: but his birthday is on FRIDAY!! REMEMBER TO SAY HAPPY BDAY!!! =D
o bad news.. hahaha.. well sorta.. remember when we went to Totoz? and then back to skool..? and ended up in AP chem 6.5 class? well... kt likes it there.. haha.. she wants to go every other week now.. hahahha BEWARE!!! LOL and she's probably gonna drag me there too.. hahaha.. s'ok.. we best buddies! mm hmm! =)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY j0eY!!!!
Posted at 11:32 pm by liTo_jAy_XD
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